la birome pecadora

no fui yo. fue la birome. Porque ya lo habia intentado antes, el cepillo no sedio, y el blusher tampoco...pero la birome...la birome lo logro...lo que significa que no es mi culpa. es culpa de la birome. no fue tan terrible debo decir. Igual esto no significa nada....eso creo. Nose si se vuelva a repetir....creo que si....pero no sabria decir con certeza. Es tentador, y a la misma vez no. Pero lo extraño es que no me lo tomo como algo grave, algo terrible, ni algo malo. simplemente paso, y es probable que vuelva a pasar. y listo. no biggie.
pero siento que tengo que hablar.siempre igual yo, todo debo exteriorisarlo. soy de vidrio 100% vidrio. no. vidrio no. cristal, porq es mas fragil (pero mejor! :p). la cuestion es que tengo que hablar...pero no quiero escuchar lo que me tengan que decir. un monologo. eso no estaria mal, alguien que escuche mi monologo, pero no debe decir nada, tampoco pensarlo, de ninguuuna manera. simplemente escuchar y nodear con la cabeza.
pero para las cosas importantes siempre es igual. es como si prefiriera recurrir a desconocidos...o no tan conocidos, y ahi vomito todo lo que tengo para confesar (interesting choice of words...)

bolas de pool

Todo empezo cuando la bola 8 perdio su camino. La bola 9 rodaba por toda la mesa, sin meterse en ninguna esquina, siempre ahi, esperando, sobre la verde mesa, rodando y rodando solitaria. Pero depronto, fue brutamente golpeada por la bola 3, descolocada de su postura, de su lugar. Le atrajo la rebeldia y persistencia de la bola en cuestion, pero se quedo en su posicion. Siempre en su posicion, a la espera de la reaccion de la 8, la unica indiscutible, inbatible e inmejorable bola 8. Pero cuando la bola blanca sale una vez mas, pega a la 3, que golpea una vez mas a la 9. Totalmente confundida y desviada, esta empieza a girar sin parar por toda la mesa, rebotando en cada borde de la misma, completamente descontrolada. Hasta que finalemente se frena. Encontro su posicion. Ni muy en el borde ni muy en el centro. Ahora si, solo faltaba un empujoncito y entraba de una (o por ahi de dos) al hoyo mas cercano. Primer golpe y nada. Segundo golpe, y nada devuelta. Depronto la blanca mueve a la 9, quien a su vez golpea a la 3, la situacion se dio vuelta por completo. Se alborota la mesa y todas las bolas disparan en sentidos contrarios. Pero no paso nada. Mientras tanto la 8 quedo en un segundo plano, estatica, siempre estatica. Mucho ruido y ningun hoyo. Los palos bajan. Una pausa. El juego se detiene. Pero el tiempo es indeterminado, siempre indeterminado.

girls just wanna have fun

i just wanted to have some fun

and you are making it so damn hard

thinking about you...

shh..

calla niña, calla
que a veces el silencio es mas claro que mil palabras

el boton magico

lo apreta: domi sale a correr
lo apaga: domi come chocolate

jajajajajajajajajajajajajajaajajaj

Stop and Stare

"This town is colder now,
I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move,
I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see
They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
Something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
What you need, what you need...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see..."

One Republic-

ahy me mata este tema! es mortal cuando cada frase se relaciona. que curioso como por momentos la musica puede llevar el curso de tu animo. es muy bueno eso, pero a veces peligroso tambien. si sabes bien que tema poner y que tema no (porque empeoran las coasd a veces, i should know jaja)
pero ayuda a aclarar la mente, las ideas, no?

Grace Kelly

"("I wanna talk to you."
"The last time we talked, Mr. Smith, you reduced me to tears. I promise you it won't happen again."
Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?
I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?
I tried to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!
I could be brownI could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtfulI could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
"Getting angry doesn't solve anything"
How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?
I tried to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtfulI could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want)"

Mika-

roller coaster

back and forth all the time.
up and down,
left then right.

brightside!

what a shocker!!
i have to say, the thought corossed my mind, but not like thaaat.
but im on a "take it easy" place right now, so this just makes me laugh!
its just so funny!!
ahhhh im having such a great timeee

i aint no babysitter

you have GOT to be kidding me! this is a disasterrr. dont get me wrong, i like my life right now, i really do...but seriously....some things could go a littlebit better...honey...get over it, you are sooo into me, pleaseee its funny! so dont be scared, i told you i dont bite! well..............hahahaha

you are acting like a teen ager! oh wait.....fuck! you are a teen ager...damn it! my bad...



be impulsive, do whatever you feel like doing, act on your instincts, dont over think it.

i kissed you......ok, i reaaallllyy kissed you. big deal! you say that when i do that in public it takes away your manhood...belive me honey, what takes away your manhood is you not letting me because your ashamed. ashamed of what? You showed my pictures to your sister! and then she almost did a cat scan of me when she met me. You talked about me with your sister! come on! you are so into me! but you dont know what you want, and i aint got all day long baby.

take it easyyyy Everybody's got something to hide except for me and my monkey

"Come on come on come on come on
Come on is such a joy
Come on is such a joy
Come on lets take it easy
Come on lets take it easy
Take it easy take it easy
Everybody's got something to hide except for me and my monkey.
The deeper you go the higher you fly
The higher you fly the deeper you go
So come on come on
Come on is such a joy
Come on is such a joy
Come on lets make it easy
Come on lets make it easy.
Take it easy take it easy
Everybody's got something to hide except for me and my monkey.
Your inside is out and your outside is in
Your outside is in and your inside is out
So come on come on
Come on is such a joy
Come on is such a joy
Come on lets make it easy
Come on lets make it easy
Make it easy make it easy
Everybody's got something to hide except for me andmy monkey."

George Harrison-

honnesty

i consider myself as an honnest person, a very honnest person. Una de pocas. You can ask me anything, and i mean annnyyything and ill answer always with the truth, be it good or bad (vale aclarar). So i say its fair enough to expect the same from the rest of the world. Honnesty. Its not that hard, you have something to say, go ahead and say it, peace of cake. Then why? why is it so damn hard for some people to just say whatever they need to say, or answer with the honnest truth. Why do people lie, why do people hide? i hate hiders....what are you not saying? what are you affraid of? what do you have to hide? Honnesty people, come on!
Besides...i dont know how you can live with lies...how can someone live peacefully when they have a whole dark thing going on inside...thats just sick. Its not good for the soul. Free your souls ("i wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away!" jaja sorry jajaja) anyway the point is, people should try and liberate themselves, dont shove it all inn, not good.

Ragdoll

"How ya feelin’?
The day has had its way with both of us

And oh, I’ve gone out of my wayBut I’m not free
From this pain I’m feeling
I was a fool to think someday
You would come around
But no, no, no
I’m not thinking that way
‘Cause now i see
You are not what you seem
You are a mystery to me
Sometimes I just want to scream
I think you should just go away ’cause
There’s no necessity for you to stay and
Next time you come around my way
Forget it babyYou’re not comin’ in
How’s your day been? (yeah)
‘Cause mine has taken strange and ugly turns
But no, no, no
I feel better today
Because I’m off my knees
You are not what you seem
You are a mystery to me
Sometimes I just want to scream
I think you should just go away ’cause
There’s no necessity for you to stay and
Next time you come around my way
Forget it baby
You’re not comin’ in
A heart ready for a life of sorrow
No you can’t come back tomorrow
Shut my windowsLock my doors
‘Cause my heart won’t be your ragdoll anymore (yeah)
I think you should just go away ’cause
There’s no necessity for you to stay and
Next time you come around my way
Forget it babyYou’re not comin’ in
A heart ready for a life of sorrow
No you can’t come back tomorrow
Shut my windows
Lock my doors
‘Cause my heart won’t be your ragdoll anymore (oh oh yeah yeah)
‘Cause my heart won’t be your ragdoll anymore"
M5-

sos mil personas en uno, se uno solo.

feedback!

you just sat there and said nothing....you cant do that! say something for heavens sake! say something!

Hard to say goodbye, my love

We didn't make forever.
We each got to go our seperate way,
And now we're standing here, helpless,
Looking for something to say.
We've been together a long time.
We never thought it would end.
We were always so close to each other;
You were always my friend.
And it's hard to say good-bye, my love.
Hard to see you cry, my love.
Hard to open up that door.
When you're not sure what you're going for.
We didn't want this to happen,
But we shouldn't feel sad.
We had a good life together.
Just remember all the times we had.
You know I've always loved you
You know I always will
But no matter how far I may go
In my heart you'll always be there
You'll know I'll always love you.
You'll know I'll always care.
And no matter how far I may go,
In my thoughts,
You'll always be there
Good-bye my love.
We didn't make forever.
It's so hard.
I can feel there's something more.
We've got to work it,
We've got to try,
Though it's hard, so hard
We have to say good-bye
We didn't make forever.
How could we loose tomorrow?

Infatuation

the state of being completely carried away by unreasoned passion or love; addictive love. Infatuation usually occurs at the beginning of a relationship. It is characterized by urgency, intensity, desire, and/or anxiety, in which there is an extreme absorption in another.

Nothing Lasts Forever

"It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep"

tangled

Oh shame on myselfI don't know how I got so tangled

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

damn it i want to kiss you again..!

las chicas del pibe mi viejo y el cuadro

a donde habran ido esas alegres chicas?
hace ya mucho tiempo que no las veo, se las extraña
que momentos divertidos que han pasado juntas!
ojala se volvieran a encontrar...

inflicted pain

i can feel the pain i'v inflicted upon you, i cant stand it, its killing me...

how hipocritical of me to even think that i can feel your suffering as my own.

of course i cant. i can only imagine, but still, it hurts...



I have become a black corrupted soul and desserve nothing but the same,

i am affraid thats not you...



as i said before, you may forgive me, but i havent forgiven myself

and i cant look at you without being inmobilized by guilt

que dolor me causo comunicarte lo que paso. No me gustaba mentirte, pero no es alivio lo que siento, no tadavia. Necesitaba que me gritaras, que te enojaras que me dijeras cosas horribles, porque si, porque lo merezco, y sinembargo te quedaste ahi, hablandome suavemente, como si quisieras consolarme....vos...a mi! Soy yo la mala de la pelicula, yo!
now i see. you are so much bigger than me. some evil came over me, and you are still here. why are you still here? why do u still care? why do you still love me? why?? why dont you hate me? why?!?

que elegancia

me impacta cuanta gracia hay en ti,
llevaste la noticia con tanta elegancia,
cuantos valores que posees!

pero yo sigo sin saber lo que quiero.

nose si puedo estar contigo despues de lo sucedido,
fue mi culpa, lo se,
todavia me quieres,
pero yo ya no me quiero mas.

sigo sin saber que quiero

crei conocerme tan bien, al parecer me equivoque

necesito saber,

necesito descubrir,

necesito equivocarme,

necesito aprender,

necesito ver...

conffusing times

i feel you slippped away, i feel like i dont have a boyfriend....there is something really wrong there. i dont know if i love you, or how much i do...

what shall i do?

do i love you? or am i just used to you? or do i love the idea of you, the idea of us?

i think about our past days and all i can do is smile, i think about our future and the smile grows even bigger, but i think about today....the smile goes away.

im complicated, wow, there's a thought that never crossed my mind!

desperation

"desperate times call for desperate meassures"

whats the meassure again..??

if i could be free from the sinner in me...

energias drenadas

me tienen todos cansada, ya no quiero saber mas nada, nada! ni de vos, ni de vos, y de vos tampoco. que complicados que son todos dios mio....bueno anda a saber, seguramente yo soy complicada para ustedes, por eso cada uno es un mundo distinto....bueno pero no nos vayamos esa es otra historia, la cuestion es que ya me cansaron, me agotaron.
quiero que cada uno haga lo que quiera, asi, selfishly, solo asi sabemos donde estamos parados, sino....bueno dejemoslo ahi.

sin el pan y sin la torta

yo que te dije? te lo dije o no te lo dije?? si, te lo dije! pero claaaro, vos no haces caso...todo a tu manera, todo a tu manera y dsps que? te sale el tiro por la culata, todo alrevez.....despues no me digas que yo no te lo dije, porque sabes bien que si. te adverti! te di consejos! me pregunto, porque sera que no escuchas nada? es realmente desesperante, ahora nose ocmo te las vas a arreglar pero a mi no me vengas llorisqueando, porque yo te lo dije! si, no voy a parar de repetirlo, porque es verdad, y quiero que te jodas por no haber escuchado.
Ahy dios mio.....yo te lo dije.....

choose!

porque no me das bola?
te llamo y no atendes....siempre igual con vos
cual es tu problema? te juro...sos dificil eh
si volves volves, y sino no vuelvas, pero no me jodas
decidite
estas o no estas?

culpabilidad compartida

La culpabilidad es compartida, %10, %20 y %70. yo soy el 70, obvio, pero hay mas q mi culpa aca. igual eso no me da merito, i was just saying...

looking back

Tuesday, June 05, 2007: "I dont know what is it that i want to be, who i want to become, i dont know, i just dont know."

well i can tell you one thing for sure, and its not who i am right now...

time machine

if i could go back in time,

oh i'd do everything differently,

but this time is different,

this time its beyond my learning curve,

this time i need the so wanted machine

no me evadas, no me cierres el circulo, no me evites, no te deshagas

verborragia

hablo quien queria callar,
a falta de hablar con quienes tenia,
se solto por donde no debia.

si pudiera ser pinguino

si solo pudiera ser pinguino,
que facil seria,
tener un amor perpetuo e infinito,
sin dudas ni melancolia,
solo amor y compania.

pronostico

hoy me fallaste,
me engañaste,
yo contaba con vos,
y me dejaste a la buena mia,
eso no es bueno, nunca es bueno.

teniamos un acuerdo,
un compromiso,
un trato,
y lo rompiste...

pero te perdono,
creo que si,
porque al fin y al cabo,
quien soy yo para decir?

numb

completely numb to the situation,


i have become who i always hated, whom i detest,


my instincts have failed me,


now i can trust my self no longer,


for the crimes i have commited lie beyond my understanding.





I have failed you, my love,


And for that i am trully sorry,





It took me a while,


But i can regret it now,


For i see the gravity,


And the damage in my lies.





I hope some day,


You can find it in your heart,


To forgive this poor child.


But i hope even more,


To forgive her myself,


And be at peace with her at last.

not ready to let us go

i think i need to rediscover you, and you rediscover me.

calecita

voy y vuelvo voy y vuelvo
es una historia de nunca acabar....que complicado
te extraño

angustia

no me dijiste nada......nada
solo me llamas para ver si salio o no el trabajo....por intereses tuyos personales...
seguro ni lo leiste, porahi te olvidaste...
no puedo creer q no me dijeras nada....q triste.

ya nose que hacer, y resulta que encima no volves hasta el viernes.
odio ser el ultimo orejon de tarro....son muchos los que vienen antes que yo y ya no lo soporto.
Siempre hablo de irme de viaje, pero nunca me fui, sigo aca

que paso con nosotros? donde quedamos? a donde fuimos?
se que dijiste que todo cambiaria....por momentos lo creo......por otros....no lo se

hoy me invaden pensamientos negativos, hace 2 dias era todo de color...
porahi es porque esta nublado....no funciono bien cuando esta nublado

hace ya mucho tiempo que vivo de ilusiones, sueños y planes. necesito dejar de imaginar y empezar a vivir hoy. los sueños son muy lindos, demasiado. pero no son mas que sueños y nosotros hemos cruzado esa fina linea que divide los dos extremos...aquel que vive y no deja de soñar, y aquel que sueña y deja de vivir.

me gustaria que todo fuese como antes...pero la maquina del tiempo sigue sin existir

today i feel good, i have a good feeling about us, i think we are going to do just fine. I feel a wind of change, a good change, wow....i can already enjoy it. I want to be with you, i want to share my whole life with you, i want to adventure into new worlds with you, i want to laugh with you, have fun with you, cry with you. i want you always and forever by my side. This is how much i love you

borred

que aburrido, ya te hinche las pelotas siempre hago lo mismo...porq sera q me cuesta mantener la distancia? que horror soy un pegote que dia de mierda hoy... habia empezado tan bien...hasta el medio dia estuvo muy bien pero la cague jaja la re cague despues.... ahy dios.

que fiaca, me aburre de solo pensarlo....

madly in love with love

i cant help it, i know its not true, and i know it doesnt last forever, but the fascination........oooh the fascination......
If only i could stay in love forever, freeze time...a touch, a glance, a moment that is worth everything in this world...
Unhideable feeling bursting into magic
ahhh, love.

i am a horrible human being,
i created hope were there was none,
now i must face the consequences,
consequences that my selfisnhess brought upon me...
i can already feel the guilt taking over,
nothing has happened yet,
but i know, i know.