Its like ice cream

Decision making has always been a hard thing to do. Usually its harder when the matter in question is of high relevance; say traveling with some guy u met on a plane and have known only for a couple of hours, but it shouldnt be when choosing ice cream flavors....right?
Well here is the thing, it works differently for me. I made the important decision in the blink of an eye (Rome was very nice, btw) but somehow its so hard for me to choose the ice cream flavors...there are just too many and they all look so good!
So thinking and thinking I tried to figure out why is this so. And another life test was thrown at me. What path will I choose for my life and here is the trick, I have more than 2 options, its not a "yes" or "no" matter. So then is when it hit me. The options are what kill me! I am mentally disabled for choosing when I have more than 2 options, either if its ice cream or which country (and with whom) I will live in....

missisipi

along came winter

and with its cold presence

it has enlightened your apsence

not a day goes by, not a single day

but i cant say the words,

it will make something true that i dont even know it really is

so just in case

i wont say

though i know what i can say it doesnt; hurt

even though that may be the case

it sucks

i know its not the same, but it does

i chewck out the "group"....nothing there

i dont even know what im looking for?

what am i hoping to see?

what am i expecting to see?

its ridiculous

ia have no idea wjhat the hell i am trying to say, i got lost on my thoughts, wtf is this weird post?? makes no sense at all, it started well and then...argh w.e.

russia here i come....yipie..

(excitement fills the air)

fucking blog wont even publish the post

awesome.

sensitive but surprisingly strong

how come if im so perfectly fine i cant stop eating every time i find myself not-busy?

i hate holidays when i have nothing to do, but these holidays are perfect, im always busy

coming here and going there

meeting friends and family, enjoying life.

But still something seems to be wrong, obviously.

Maybe its the fact that even though im having a good time i havent yet figured out what i am going to do with mjy life. And 'am also worried about the amount of exams i owe. Am i going to live abroad? doing what? where? how?

how can someone have the power to make another person happy? this is too much..

have the power of someones happines without even asking for it. its a burdon

even worse knowing that u cant give them what will make them happy

what are we supposed to say on those cases? "im sorry"? thats it??? thats not good enough...im sorry.....how are you gonna say im sorry...what is that??? no, this isnt right.

"someone always ends up hurt" well this is not good enough for me, there must be something else...another way.

This is why im never scared, i have nothing to lose, nothing to risk. im always fine, ill always be fine.

Worse case scenario ill put on some weight maybe 4kg and get a little depressed during winter

And its not that i dont risk anything, cuz i do, a lot, and i always give so much, but somehow manage to stay "untouched", solid, complete, strong.

prueba

no puedo publicar postssssssssssss ;(