Overnight gets you thinking...
(and 1 year later...Welcome Back to me..!)
About 4 months ago something happened. A break point in my life, a before-and-after kind of thing, an awakening, an acknowledgment o self, personal growth and... ok!! stop it with the dramatic literature prologue and just cut to the chase! Jesus... So, something amazing happened (with someone, of course, what else would I blog about..?) but it also led to simply a sad conclusion. I lost the belief in love, in forever after and honest men. This beautiful encounter made me feel blushed and special, but at the same time disappointed. Trust and faithfulness is not something we see everyday. In fact, as days go by, the cheatings and deceits between couples just grow bigger and wider around the world. There is a saying in Spanish that goes: "De la muerte y los cuernos nadie se salva" (I don't like translating sayings, it makes no sense) But basically it says that no one can escape death or to be cheated on in life. And this is such an unfortunate truth. So how am I supposed to believe in true love and in forevers?? I had two examples of people close to me that I felt like they were the exception, the hope, the light at the end of the tunnel, that thing that made me believe, that little inner voice that said "but maybe..." (you are going on again....). I felt I could (here goes another Spanish saying) "put my hands in fire for them". That was how blindly I trusted their honesty and true love to their corresponding couples. One of them is still standing, the other one....not so much. So if any of my rumbling makes any kind of sense at this point (it IS 4:53 am...) what I mean is that the light is dimmering out. Furthermore, today I came to notice something else, my trust in men has significantly decreased. This is quite alarming and very uncomfortable. I have never been that kind of woman who is constantly mistrusting and suspicious about everything. I used to be very relaxed in that sense. But this new feeling is quite annoying and again, simply uncomfortable and even stressful. WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TEXTING AT 5 AM AND WHY ARE YOU ONLINE AFTER YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO SLEEP AND ADDITIONALLY NOT REPLYING MY TEXTS??? HUGH??? Ups..! The inner girlie in me :/
So yeah...these are my overnight thoughts... Is trust regainable? How can you trust someone who cheated with you? Is forever a real thing? Do I even want that? How do you prevent boredom and dullness from happening? WHY DO YOU HAVE SO MANY GIRL FRIENDS??? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO NICE AND CHARMING WITH ALL OF THEM??? Oh...sorry...she burst up again...my bad..(shush!! get back in there you!)
About 4 months ago something happened. A break point in my life, a before-and-after kind of thing, an awakening, an acknowledgment o self, personal growth and... ok!! stop it with the dramatic literature prologue and just cut to the chase! Jesus... So, something amazing happened (with someone, of course, what else would I blog about..?) but it also led to simply a sad conclusion. I lost the belief in love, in forever after and honest men. This beautiful encounter made me feel blushed and special, but at the same time disappointed. Trust and faithfulness is not something we see everyday. In fact, as days go by, the cheatings and deceits between couples just grow bigger and wider around the world. There is a saying in Spanish that goes: "De la muerte y los cuernos nadie se salva" (I don't like translating sayings, it makes no sense) But basically it says that no one can escape death or to be cheated on in life. And this is such an unfortunate truth. So how am I supposed to believe in true love and in forevers?? I had two examples of people close to me that I felt like they were the exception, the hope, the light at the end of the tunnel, that thing that made me believe, that little inner voice that said "but maybe..." (you are going on again....). I felt I could (here goes another Spanish saying) "put my hands in fire for them". That was how blindly I trusted their honesty and true love to their corresponding couples. One of them is still standing, the other one....not so much. So if any of my rumbling makes any kind of sense at this point (it IS 4:53 am...) what I mean is that the light is dimmering out. Furthermore, today I came to notice something else, my trust in men has significantly decreased. This is quite alarming and very uncomfortable. I have never been that kind of woman who is constantly mistrusting and suspicious about everything. I used to be very relaxed in that sense. But this new feeling is quite annoying and again, simply uncomfortable and even stressful. WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TEXTING AT 5 AM AND WHY ARE YOU ONLINE AFTER YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO SLEEP AND ADDITIONALLY NOT REPLYING MY TEXTS??? HUGH??? Ups..! The inner girlie in me :/
So yeah...these are my overnight thoughts... Is trust regainable? How can you trust someone who cheated with you? Is forever a real thing? Do I even want that? How do you prevent boredom and dullness from happening? WHY DO YOU HAVE SO MANY GIRL FRIENDS??? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO NICE AND CHARMING WITH ALL OF THEM??? Oh...sorry...she burst up again...my bad..(shush!! get back in there you!)
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