sucky day today

I dont get u, ure just suddenly a different person, i dont know what the hell got into you...no i think i do know..that stupid thing u did, you must have been really lost, really lonely, really sad and depressed...i dont know. you just dont care any more and its sad...its really sad and heartbreacking but also nerveracking..but its over, i dont want you to care anymore, forget it, u made your choice, stick to it, for once. we used to have something great, something unique i guess u dont want it anymore, and u know what its fine, its really just fine im getting used to it,, u know, people leaving and stuff...jesus! it sounds so pathetic.....i must be a piece of shit, really shitty person, because this is unbelievable, i really push people away, or scare them or somethin'...cuz they leave, just like you did...AGAIN by the way....
oh boy....never thought i would find myself in this position...its hard to say this, even harder to say it outloud because its been going on in my head for some time, but for some reason i couldnt say it...
i have no friends.....

there, i said it.

god that sucks.

i dont know where to strart...theres just too many things and i dont even understand half of them. There is one thing though. You left. you dont care anymore, i never thought this would happen, but it did, and i still cant believe it, its hitting me now, and its been going on for some time...