blue

i need to be on my own
i need to clear my head
but i also need support
i need someone that cares
does anybody care? anybody? someone? no? nobody? ok


"i've got my heart set on anywhere but here
steady hands just take the wheels
every glance is killing me"

"every night she'd cry her self to sleep
thinking why does this happen to me?"

LISTEN

you should listen to what im not saying
just listen to my unspoken words
please listen..
cuz i cant shout any louder...
i am alone in a crossroads

pensativa

yes, i think things over and through, thats my way. because i care, i do, and i dont want to hurt anybody. "no hagas lo que no te gustaria que te hicieran a vos". i follow by that rule. ive broken it, i addmit, but i regret my mistakes, i really do. i dont take for granted what ive done. im less of a human being for it...or am i more..? i made a mistake, a huge mistake, i broke my principal. i did what i never thought i could do. i hate myself for it. i used to consider myself as a great person, and suddenly... if only i could turn back time...but it wouldnt do it, no it wouldnt, because it was in my insides, it had to be...but how? how can something as dark as the sin ive commited couldve been living and burning in my insides? i had dreams about it, many dreams...lord was i frightened by them...
still...
there is no forgiveness for what ive done.

"you'll do anything to get whats fair, but fair aint what you really need"

cataratas del Niagara

que manera de llorar. resulto ser todo un play pretend. im not o fucking k and its obvious. im all over the place, cant you see? im a wreck. i feel bad, i feel like a bad human being. and sad. and blue. and depressed. did i mentioned sad??
i miss you
what can i do?
i wish i knew what i want

tell me why

why is it that i dont hurt inside,
why is it that i cry every time i see our pictures,
why is it that things ended up the way they did,
why am i here and you, you are there,
why is it that i miss you,
why?
why do i keep on changing my mind each day,
why is it that i dont know how i feel?

please, please just spare me the pain and tell me why....why?