nudo en la garganta

fighting with you really brakes my heart, it kills me. and it annoys me too. me desgasta. sorry, couldnt find the word. i honestly feel you have things to say and instead you keep'em all to yourself. you never ever share anything with me. if you dont share with me, then who are you gonna share with hugh? its just me. im here. talk to me, i said this before, why do i have to repeat myself? talk to me. tell me, whatever it is you need to tell me, just do. dont make jokes, dont shout, just talk. dont feel ashamed, there is no reason to.

its funny how a couple of hours ago i was planning a totally different post. i was gonna name it "dreaming out loud". it was supposed to be about all of thosde things i dreamt ever since i was a little girl. those dreams that grew year by year, and got stronger each day. Untill one day my beautiful dreams got shatterd all at once. Honestly i never thought i could get them back. I just didnt belive in them any more. I wanted to, but i couldnt. Today i got a glimpse of them.

que bajon

me aburri
twice
3ra-----cero ganas
que bajon este sentimiento.....que bajon

a good girl

so i thought: ...maybe that fake tear was a taste of what would come...

i wanted to turn back time so badly...
im sorry. im sorry if i hurt you im sorry if i made u feel bad...
then i took a shower, a very hot and still refreshing shower. did me good, more than i thought.
and my ideas fell back into place.
i dont want to be the stupid crying little girl no more. the one that gets scolded at. nobody's gonna hurt me no more. nope, dont desserve it.
we all make mistakes. yes, thats the word, MISTAKE. theres no bad or evil in me, just human. thers no bad intentions or blackness in my heart.
im pure human with a touch of stupidity, thats all.

who are you?

its a strange feeling inside.
like i dont know you no more, like i lost you and you me.
it feels like you dont care, no more like you forgot...
we fell apart
your always out. out there somewhere, nowhere. or at least i dont know where, you dont even bother to say.
i think i liked you better before.

and by the way, you're not entitled to tell me what i should or shouldnt do. you lost that attribute when you forgot you had a doughter.