what a dissappointment

thanks for the advice....reeeeeeeally helpful......

clueless

I am stuck. Stuck like a nail on the wall.
Ifeel trapped, like a body in a coffin six feet under.
I most deffinitely do not have the situation under control. i hate this feeling.
Everything is so perfect right now, why do i have to feel this way and completely ruin the perfectness??
i cant help but notice that i may not be on the right path. for me, at least.
some things fall back into place, like you. but others....others just dont feel so right.
what should i do?
it was foolish of me to believe that 10 minutes of thinking sitting on the ground watching the sea would make it all good. It takes more than 10 minutes damn it! why should i know at the age of 22 what i am supposed to do for the rest of my life?? what if im wrong? what if i choose wrong? what then??
i missed the finals and that should be a sign. i havent payed ever since november, there goes another sign. i didnt even call asking why the hell no mails came in...well that one i dont think its a sign...thats just good old fashioned me. But the point is i have lost interest....because i have no clue about what i want to do with this. where i wanna go. how i want to spend the rest of my days. i have no clue.