Tuesday, February 17, 2009

searching for positive vibes

"I will find my way,
i can go the distance,
ill be there some day,
if i can be strong,
i know every mile will be worth my while,
i will go almost anywhere to feel like i belong"

maybe if i sing it out loud i can make myself belive

Disney broke my heart

"When you wish upon a star,
no matter who you are,
your dreams come true"

I am a dreamer, i wished upon thousands of millions of stars....but my dreams have not yet come true. So now I dream for you. For others happiness and wellbeing, seeing as my dreams never seem to find their way to coming true.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Visperas de San Valentin

3 a.m. en la madrugada de San Valentin. Feliz dia.
que curioso....nunca recibi ningun regalo para el dia de san valentin......y no hay nada que me guste mas que eso....una pabada, una tarjeta, una flor, un gesto....algo. no. nunca nada. jamas. y porque? porque no?? con lo mucho que me gustan esas pabadas....."como en las peliculas!" se....

interrupcion

que??????????????? jajaj ah naaaa, vos tas totalmente colgado de la palmera....ridiculo. lo tuyo no tiene desperdicio, igual te doy algo a favor, me sorprendes, posta que me sorprendes como nadie jaja me descolocas. que gracias que me haces dioss jajaja sin previo aviso...como un balde de agua fria. shockeante pero totalmente inofensivo.

si. me ofrecieron algo para San Valentin. (recien reciencito nomas) pero no lo que queria ni tampoco quien queria. todo bien, siempre bien poruqe yo soy asi. la mejor onda. pero olvidate. fue un desliz, pero hace rato que me recupere. you and me...not gonna happen ever again.

cuestion que no tengo regalo de san valentin y me molesta. hoy por hoy me conformo con un "feliz dia" eso me haria feliz (el dia...jajaj) por mensajito de texto por lo menos, todo bien, no me molesta, pero me gustaria recibir un "feliz dia"... pero...de quien?? LA pregunta.

el primero que lo manda gana

el primero que lo manda...gana???

Friday, February 13, 2009

it sucks to be me

im damaged and broken
i dont seem to be finding my goal and im hurting people in the way. i hate that. it makes me feel horrible, guilty, very guilty. i feel like a monster...me...evil evil thing. on top of that im scared. frightened; i dont want to be unhappy. what if i make the wrong decissions?? what if i end up like one of those poor old grumpy couples that used to be in love once upon a time and now just hate each other?? what if i get bored?? i easily get bored...i dont want to be bored...if u ask me...worse feeling: boredom. what if im unhappy?? god it sucks! it sucks so bad to be me...

"time is getting by and you dont get a second shot"

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

broken

im broken inside and i cant give anything. im damaged.

Monday, February 02, 2009

:)............... :(

it didnt last much....

"Killing Me"

Hello, tell me you know
That you've figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now
And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing'
Cause you and I, we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better than you and your boyfriend

Well all I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still cant say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, If it kills me
How long can I go on like this
Wishing to kiss you

Before I rightly explode
And this double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all
Baby, theres a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

All I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still cant say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

Well all I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, If it kills me
I think it might kill me
And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, If it kills me
It might kill me

-Jason Mraz-