porque sere una persona tan sensata??
quisiera poder echar culpas, trato pero no lo hago,
porque en el fondo se que la culpa es mia, solo mia.
quisiera poder enojarme, pero no lo hago
se que debo enojarme, pero conmigo
porque sabre admitir mis errores?
porque no puedo echarle la culpa a alguien mas?
seria mas facil asi...

i want us to be ok

i want things to work out, why cant we be ok?
this is killing me...
it feels like we've broken up already..
and still i want things to work. i want things to work so badly...but...do you?
do you want us to work? do you?
do you even love me? do you?

"men might have discovered fire, but women know how to play with it"

I just loved that, isnt it great. My god i love Sex and the City such an amazing show, so....womanly! The conversations are outstandingly precise. We totally have all of those thoughts in our minds. I am telling you, for those men who still havent figured out women, just watch a couple of episodes and your good to go! And dont forget; we are all different.

wonderful weekend

great friday and amazing saturday. Nothing in particular, just sweetness in the air.
unlucky sunday....sunday bloody sunday, never fails
but....everybody is allowed to have a bad day, right?

the last couple of weeks i've been missing something,
something that has to do with my old conffident, my previous "person" my ex lover.
though many things were wrong,
many things didnt work,
and many of them never would have,
there's still one thing,
one very small but big thing that was outstandingly important for me.
And that was the way we could always comunicate.
no matter what i could always speack to you,
we would sit down for hours trying to solve a problem,
finding answers and solutions.
sleeping it off was never a option.
i long for that,
for having a boyfriend which i can actually talk to and get some feedback..

"Nobody said it was easy, nobody said it would be so hard"

Why? why does it have to be so darn complicated? is it a sign? does the universe not want us to be togather? does that even exist? fate? what is really fate? you mentioned it once, on one of your letters...that was a nice letter...i wonder what ever happened to those times...oh yeah right, time happened, or to be more precise, the absolute and complete lack of it. But you know what, its not only that, its not the lack of time, its what it does to you, how it affects you. You have lost your energy, your dessire for anything. Its like your new life has completely drained your soul. You're angry and moody all the time, and have lost interest in everything and anything. And then there is me. and us. I dont even know where I fit in...what part of you belongs to me? Is there even a part of you that belongs to me? your heart maybe? where is that, by the way? cuz i cant seem to find it...Where am I in you?