numb

completely numb to the situation,


i have become who i always hated, whom i detest,


my instincts have failed me,


now i can trust my self no longer,


for the crimes i have commited lie beyond my understanding.





I have failed you, my love,


And for that i am trully sorry,





It took me a while,


But i can regret it now,


For i see the gravity,


And the damage in my lies.





I hope some day,


You can find it in your heart,


To forgive this poor child.


But i hope even more,


To forgive her myself,


And be at peace with her at last.