thinking and not thinking at the same time

this is way too slow for my taste, i hate it, i cant take it any more, its killing me. Though i have to addmit, if it had been faster, and if you wouldve been all arround me 24/7 i would have hated it so much from the beggining. I guess this is just the way it is. It doesnt matter how it goes im gonna hate it anyways...I guess ill just have to wait for it to have an ending...or a beggining...