always falling for the wrong one?

Its a weird feeling...on one hand this is exactly what you want, what you always look for, but once you find it....you sometimes forget the pain it used to cause you. Its so frustrating, but i guess you cant blame the heart for the choices it makes, these things just happen. It seems you just cant take it any longer, but you do. You let yourself to be played with. And you hate it, but you cant help it, cuz you melt even worse when he comes near you again. As much as you know how wrong it sounds, you think you've fallen for him, and there is nothing you can do about it, cuz you dont even know how he feels about you. It seems no matter what you do, it tears your heart in two. So sometimes you just sit there waiting for him to come whenever he feels like it, and take you to that special place, even if its only for a moment...

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