una cagada tremenda...or not...??

es esa epoca en donde termino el school...y...estas re feliz...y tus amigas...y todo...la vida real...todo...y de pronto..BOOM. NO. no te chocas contra ninguna pared de la realidad...no se trata de eso...por q...siempre supe lo q habia ahi afuera...pero se trata de otra cosa...ese tema q siempre sono tan infantil...y nunca supiste como ponerlo en palabras,....pero no hay otras...las amistades..ya no se trata del famoso "por q me dijo q le dijeron q ella hizo y dijo...blabla entonces yo blablabla" por q no hay ningun "me dijo" para empezar...en otras palabras...sucede q no hay conversacionnn alguna!! hay gente con la que te llevabas mas q bien...y resulta q de un dia para el otro...sorry...not any more!!!..esw como cuando ter tomas la coca, miras para adentro y dice "segui participando"...god i hate the feeling! hahah anyways...seriously...its like..one minute you looove me and there is love and pink and hearts and little light blue clouds and unicorns floating and flying everywhere arround, and the next minute...what do you know? there's nothin'!!! everyone is sooo cought up on their own lives that they dont even stop for a single minute just to think abput that good old friend who was there for you every single time you felt like you needed support...not even a stupid e-mail! notin'!! whats that supposed to mean???? guess im the one who has to go make al the phone calls and write all the mails and check up on every one of them...except for some who do actually call...who make me think...well...maybe those are the ones who really matter...right? the ones who'll be there always...anyways...its a never ending story.........