it kills me

every discussion takes away a bit of me
all beacause you dont know the effect you have on me
the sadness is invasive
not even the highest mountains can make it go away
the beatin of my heart....
this feeling....
es ensordecedor y desconcertante,
Im hurting
every time it gets worse
everytime is one more time
everytime it takes a piece of my
every piece that gets taken away is bigger and bigger
this needs to stop
or nothing but emptyness will remain
i dont want that to happen, i really dont
those ups and downs
i love you i hate id kill you
i cant do this
not like this no

It seems im an excellent listenner,
but here's what nobody knows
i have enormous difficulties opening myself to people
talking when i need to, asking for help
speacking outould when something is not right
i just cant
its so easy for me to hear someone else's problems,
to try and make it better for them, to give advice
(i dunno im stuck asiq ahi quedo)